no screen, all green

The summer solstice is soon upon us. This can be such an energizing time of year as we approach our longest day, when the sun is the strongest for us in the Northern Hemisphere. We are also shifting into the soft, nurturing Cancer season contrasted by a strong & defining full moon in Capricorn within 2 days of the official start to summer. 

I am viewing this poignant moment in the year as a time of balance. The balance between the ambitious, driven Capricorn & the intuitive, tender Cancer. Continuing to shed my ingrained tendencies that I am not enough & I must fill any voids with money, materials or extra work. Always going, always doing, always comparing myself & my path to others. I am trying to bring in more Cancerian elements of softening expectations, tending to my body & mind, allowing the expression of raw emotion. 

Metamoon is & forever will be an evolutionary experience. I hate to call it a business, but at the end of the day we must acknowledge we do in fact live in a capitalist society. In starting this business 6 months ago, I aimed to offer my services & practices in a way that felt genuine, while also trying to “keep up” with the wellness hustle culture that undeniably exists. 

One way of doing this was to start a social media account. I have had brief spurts on social media (the last time was about 5 years ago), wanting to connect with peers at certain points in life. It has never lasted long, usually a couple months at most before I lose interest & delete. I have fully known my disdain for egocentric platforms like Instagram , Facebook or TikTok. But I figured, operating under the lens of a business rather than an individual would be different! 

Initially, although timid, I was excited yet nervous. I felt illiterate in this aspect of modern culture. I aimed to create natural, unfiltered, authentic content, exactly as I was in the moment. Over the course of the last 6 months, I gradually noticed my shift from social media being a mildly positive experience to the same toxicity I know & remember it being. 

Slowly, I watched my mind shift. Pausing to arrange a moment so it captured well on camera, or altering my yoga or tarot practice for aesthetic reasons rather than for the most physically or spiritually rewarding reasons.

 I found myself locked into “doomscrolling” through content that I constantly compared myself to, strangers I would never meet now knowing what is best for me. My negative self-talk, that I work so hard to quiet, was becoming louder & louder. My vibrancy & clarity mentally was fading as I watched clips that are just long enough to keep my attention & give my brain a small hit of dopamine, to keep rewarding me for staying engaged & ignoring my actual life around me. 

I have tried to use discipline around screen & media use, limiting time or only following content that is “positive”, but it still feels disingenuous to who I am at my core & everything I believe regarding health & wellness. 

For these many reasons, I am taking a summer sabbatical from social media. I’m calling it “No Screen, All Green”, metamoon’s instagram will stay active as a means of contact, but I will not be posting or checking for the foreseeable future. Rather than focusing my efforts & energy into creating content that tracks well on socials, I will be rolling out a newsletter & more free content. I think engaging with my community in a more private manner (via email & my website) will provide an open, real & quality wellness experience. I have a hard time using a platform I find so mentally & emotionally disrupting to promote services that I intend to be healing for you. 

I truly believe in the benefits of living for YOU in the moment, not how you appear to the public eye. This way of living has brought me so much bliss & fulfillment. You are present & in tune with your surroundings, able to find joy in the small moments of beauty that we all too often miss. Your loved ones, even your pets will appreciate it if you put your phone down & stop scrolling. 

Your self confidence boots when you are no longer seeking external validation. Your happiness increases when you receive those feel good neurotransmitters from real life experiences, not short bursts of instant gratification from a screen. You have more time to enjoy life, to be outside, to feel free! Bring back the days when it was acceptable to be out of communication for a couple hours.

I encourage you to sign my pledge for a social media free summer, from the Summer Solstice on June 20 to the Autumnal Equinox on September 22nd & see what 3 months disconnected from the screen does for you! Anyone who signs, will receive a free sticker via snail mail. 

sign up here

happy summer, 

kerry + metamoon